Hello Betty

I'm sure this story and question will interest a number of older men. I'm interested to see what you say. I'm 62 years old and have been married for 39 years. In that time I have only ever had one sexual encounter outside marriage with a woman during a massage and that was only a hand job. In recent years the frequency of sex in my marriage has declined to almost non existant.

Unfortunately my wife has always had rather prudish views on sexual matters and our sexual activity was mainly restricted to intercourse in the missionary position. That said, we have 3 wonderful children and grandchildren and love each other deeply. The problem is, when it comes to our sex life I am unable to discuss it with her because she refuses to talk about it.

This is where masturbation comes in. I began jacking off at about the age of 13 and have continued to do so throughout marriage. In recent years though the frequency of my masturbation has increased to almost what it was as a teenager. I now masturbate daily and occasionally more often. My fascination with the male orgasm is enormous. In my opinion, watching an erect penis spurting wads of semen is about as arousing and erotic as you can get. I frequently log onto the internet and masturbate watching videos of men jacking off. I really enjoy this but fear that I'll get caught.

I am now very close to trying to locate a male partner to discreetly share mutual masturbation sessions. I fantasize about holding another mans cock in my hand and stroking him to orgasm. For me there is something special about the moment of ejaculation. Not just the visual side of it but the almost spiritual sensation of sharing the intense pleasure and satisfaction of orgasm. To share with another, the emotional bonding that goes hand in hand with intense sexual activity would be wonderful.

My question to you is, do you feel these desires are acceptable and should I act on them? If so, where do I go to find a caring discreet partner? I am not young, and while quite fit and healthy, I am a little on the heavy side and only have a small penis (5"). I need utmost discretion too because I wouldn't want to hurt my family in any way. I look forward to your response.

Regards, Bruce